i love the way you love

i just sort of had an ephiany.. instead of focusing on the things that are weighing me down, i need to look to the future.. to things that are comming.. that i am so excited for.. surgery, its going to change my life.. and i cant wait. my life with C and L, spending time with them, moving foward in our relationship, i am so excited for those things to come.. a new job.. i just have to get through all the sludge (not C and L.. they arent sludge at all) but all that stuff that i feel holding me down.. and back. i cant wait to get through it all. and get to the good stuff :D