why am i loved only when im gone?

this weekend with Miss Fran and Mr Hubby started on saturday afternoon. im always so happy to see them after not seeing them during the week. we were watching a movie and Mr Hubby went to bed early and told us to wake him up a little later.. we watched the rest of the movie and then went to wake him up, and we were having trouble convincing him to get up so Miss Fran had me talk dirty to him.. and that woke him up :) i got to suck him off for a little bit and then i asked him very nicely to fuck me.. i even said please! but He said no.. that i had to fuck him.. so i climbed on and fucked him. then we all got up and went to watch Little Brittan and if none of You have seen it.. you need to. especially if you like british humor. we all went to bed.. and i was supposed to sleep with Miss Fran but ended up with Mr Hubby, and we spent a lot of time, a couple of hours at least talking.. about my jealousy issues, about sharing, bringing other people into things, about how He has had walls up with me from the begening, but now they aren't there.. and that He's falling in love with me.. it made me cry.. in a good way :) it was a relief to know that im not the only one.. because im on the way down from falling in love.. and just about to land on IN love..lol with both of them.. falling in love has always happened fast for me.. and every time before now.. ive regretted it. regretted not taking the time to go slower. and i certinly did try hard to go slow this time, but no matter what walls i do have up, i still wear my heart on the sleeve.. and ill lose my heart.. not lose.. but give it to them.. but im not afraid this time. i want to live in the now.. not worry about later. We'll deal with later when it comes.. and im going to do my best to make sure that that "later" never comes.. or at least not for a very very long time. so, after talking for a long time.. we had sex again, and i came.. even if i did still have to rub my clit.. it was amazing, and i cryed again..lol i cry a lot. so sunday we went and worked out at the YMCA and let me tell you what. im still hurting like crazy! but it was so much fun! we did weights for a little bit then we went and played raquett ball and that was the funnest part. one day we'll kick his butt *evil grin* then we went home and went to walmart and did all the shopping, and i made a wow account when we got back. so we all made new chars and played for a while. then it was time to bed. i was going to sleep with Miss Fran but i didnt want to sleep in Her bed.. i went about things all wrong sunday night.. i complained when i should have gone about it all different.. she eneded up thinking that i didnt like sleeping with her.. which isnt the case at all! except she likes to punch me in the face when i sleep =P (it only happened once and it was an accident) so she got mad and yelled.. i got upset, moved my sleeping stuff out to the living room and ended up sleeping on the couch.. alone.. and with no blankie ='( we have all talked things out and things are fine.. till next sunday when im sure something new will come up.. as they always seem to come up on sunday for some reason. i went to the dentist today, and over all things are a lot better in this big mouth of mine then i thought they would be! thank goodness for that. wow.. long post