places everyone, PLACES!

i had a great weekend.. though at times i felt that things were a little tense.. places were forgotten and i feel like its at least partly my fault because ive disrupted the balance, i know everyone needs time to adjust and all that, its just kind of nerve racking, hoping that things will fall back into place, and everyone will be happy in each of their respective places. but over all things were good.. i made another flogger, with nylon rope, but this time i burned the ends.. and wow. what a difference. it looked like i had the chicken pox when She was done with me! it was the closest ive ever come to calling out a safe word.. ive never wanted to say it as much as i did then.. but ive realised that She isnt the only one pushing my limits, that im pushing myself too, seeing how far i can let it go, and i knew i could grin and bear it, that i could take more, and that's why i didnt say it. its hard getting your mind around the fact, that im laying here, and yes it hurts, it hurts really bad, but at the same time knowing that i can take more.. i have to forget one and focus on the other. ill post more later =)